I am not a fan of waiting. The anticipation whether negative or positive gnaws at me. My mind runs all possible scenarios around the situation and evaluates every interaction for possible clues. I remind myself that I have to get through today to get to tomorrow. Then I wish time would move faster.

The waiting can be for a diagnosis, job opportunity, vacation or anything of the like and I am filled with anticipation. I’m filled with an anxious energy that doesn’t seem to have an outlet, so I pray. As I pray for my most desired outcome, I also pray that God’s will be done. Then I wait impatiently.

¹³ I remain confident of this:
    I will see the goodness of the Lord
    in the land of the living.
¹⁴ Wait for the Lord;
    be strong and take heart
    and wait for the Lord. (Psalm 27:13-4 NIV).

I trust that no matter the outcome it is what is best for me. How can a negative diagnosis or a job loss be what is good for me? There is no guarantee I won’t suffer in life. I certainly have had my fair share of suffering. I can also say that I wouldn’t change any of it. It has made me who I am. It has given me a testimony to the power of God to transform a heart.

I’m learning to embrace anticipation. Waiting is my least favorite state to be in. I trust that God is working in and through me even in the waiting. I trust that the outcome will be what is best for me and others around me. To be honest, I am writing this in a current state of anticipation as reminder to myself of what I trust and believe.

How are you with anticipation? Does waiting bother you? Do you trust God’s goodness will be seen? Share your story here and breathe life and bring hope to others.