I woke up feeling meh. I have gotten to know this feeling through my youngest. He spent much of his teenage years telling me he was meh. It is very similar to blah. It’s unmotivated, semi tired and slightly blue all rolled into one.

When I’m feeling meh, I’m willing to let life roll on by without my active participation. It’s like one step above depression. I can move myself out of it, or I can let myself wallow in it. This day, I chose caffeine and exercise to get myself out of it. Other days, it takes more.

At first I didn’t think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me, “My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.” Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become. (2 Corinthians 12:8-10 MSG).

On those other days, I lean on the One who gives me strength. I remind myself that there is purpose in my feeling meh, and that the weaker I get; the stronger I become. Wallowing can feel like the easier choice and maybe it is. It is not a feeling I enjoy. I usually want it to go away quickly, but I know if it lingers, there is something for me to learn within it. There is something God wants me to discover about myself, something I need to let go of.

It’s easy to ignore the gift within feeing meh. The gift is strength, freedom, grace, transformation. I don’t want to miss the gift.

Are you willing to lean into the feeling and find the gift? Do you prefer to wallow in the meh? Share your story here and breathe life and bring hope to others.